Life, how do i live it?

Sometimes you can't make it on your own (U2) so true. Experiencing 'true' 'real' intimate pionate love with your soul mate and then having it ripped from you is one of the most if not the hardest thing to go through in life. So many experiences and memories, it's been six years since we broke up, yet not one day goes by that i don't think about her. She is now engaged and ready to be married to someone else. I am happy for her. But.... Where does this pain come from??????? I have lost many people close to me, my brother killed himself when i was very young, my best friend got killed when i was a teenager, seeing many people on their death bed and other atrocities on operations overseas when i served in the army, surviving military prison and 3 drug overdoses and the whole drug world, this by far is the hardest, deepest pain i have ever experienced. It is better to of loved than to not of loved. I believe many if not most couples don't experience 'true' love, i know i have. But to live with this, like this, does it ever get better???? Some days are better than others. I have dated other girls since but......... They can't even compare. Life isn't always easy. Someone has always got it worse. Count the positives in your life, yes i know all that, it still doesn't help. Counselling- i don't like opening up to people i don't know (this is first time i've ever done anything public like this), mates - but can help only so far. Where do u turn? yahoo???????...... God help all of us hey...Always have to fight that temptation to leave this place hey.